wheelieterp | Sad?? Pissed?? Must be my sibling.

My sister was supposed to be coming for Thanksgiving. She cancelled. She is very different than I am. It's hard to believe we were raised in the same home, let alone are genetically related. (We were both ~~purchased~~ adopted, but have the same birth mother.) She is blond hair and blue eyed, but got more of the persian bone structure than I did. She is... Well... She's a redneck. She's had LOTS of kids, a few husbands, lots of boyfriends (ok, so maybe we're similar in that regards), not a lot of jobs. She lives in a 5th wheel trailer. None of this is a judgement; I love her. I really do. But She is different. And because of those differences, we have not been close. That was starting to change in the last year. Her kids no longer live with her (which, I am sad to say means that they are better off and I no longer have to object to the lack of parenting), she was holding down a job, being independant. Bought the trailer for herself. Was calling and staying in touch with the family. Now she's engaged. Again. So she and the fiance were planning on driving up here to Portland to see me for Thanksgiving. I was excited, and a little trepidatious too. Then the trouble started. They were supposed to arrive on Friday, but she called last week to get my street address... She needed it to give to his parole officer. Yup.. Parole officer. Weeeeeee... So, it got postponed to a Tuesday arrival. Well.. I had not heard back, so I called today... She fed me some bullshit story, too pathetic to even repeat, and told me she's not coming... I said I understood and that it was ok. Cuz I am giving that way.

It's not ok. It's too late now to make plans to go home. So.. Well...

I don't know whether to be sad, pissed or both.

I was really counting on this... Damn it....

I guess sad it is....